Why am I here

They say that life begins at 40, bah humbug! I had a family/friends get together for my 40th was so good to see everyone! 41 came and went OK then when I got to 42...7 days after my birthday I lost my dear sister to cancer, we had only known a few months.....then so many more friends and family died the same year....by the time the last one came to be buried I just couldn't go devastated! We were having neighbour troubles too ... well one day I woke up with pains everywhere, and couldn't think what was wrong with me, struggled on a little then ended up at the docs, as you do! She was wonderful! glad I saw her and not the male of the species! More sympathy! after all tests I got told I had Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia ....world ends! well it nearly did, felt like I was the only one...the !I feel sorry for myself" lasted a while till one day I sobbed and sobbed! and poor Keith and Jo couldn't stop me...that felt better :o) Now a few years on , I am still in pain....cant take many pain killers as they make me ill! But the RA is under control with pills and injections...I give the injections to myself every two weeks with an epi pen ....life is still sad a lot of the time but I fight it and smile with the help of Keith...he is a rock! with all he has wrong with him , he still looks after me too....I cook him the odd meal lol ...a way to a mans heart ha ha
I used to blog on yahoo 360, loved it! but the rotters closed it down! then went to Multiply and never did really like it there, so now here I am again ....and you know why I spend my time sitting here and not out in the real world!